[ for lying. for not coming clean about a few of the other things he's still hiding. tate, henry. he can talk about honesty and swear loyalty to billy as much as he wants, but words are just words, at the end of the day, and these big sweeping gestures he keeps doing - making mixtapes, killing fathers - are just bandaids over the bigger, deeper cuts, here. he doesn't know how to make friends. doesn't know how to keep people. doesn't know how to not be selfish. he loves billy, but how much of that because billy is billy, and how much of it is because billy is here, with him, and loving him back? he'd like to say he knows the answer to that - but do normal people have doubts like these? thoughts like these? how much of his depression is real?
there's a delay before billy gets a follow-up message. ]
well... victor's gayer than both of us combined. not an insult, obviously. just a fact. i told you how i met him, right? we were in the showers and he was kicking shabman's ass. he was totally hard. dude's compensating. and chico? dude, his days are numbered. i'll take out anyone who hurts you. you know that.
i can meet you there. if you want. i kind of hate texting still.
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i'm sorry.
[ for lying. for not coming clean about a few of the other things he's still hiding. tate, henry. he can talk about honesty and swear loyalty to billy as much as he wants, but words are just words, at the end of the day, and these big sweeping gestures he keeps doing - making mixtapes, killing fathers - are just bandaids over the bigger, deeper cuts, here. he doesn't know how to make friends. doesn't know how to keep people. doesn't know how to not be selfish. he loves billy, but how much of that because billy is billy, and how much of it is because billy is here, with him, and loving him back? he'd like to say he knows the answer to that - but do normal people have doubts like these? thoughts like these? how much of his depression is real?
there's a delay before billy gets a follow-up message. ]
well...
victor's gayer than both of us combined. not an insult, obviously. just a fact.
i told you how i met him, right? we were in the showers and he was kicking shabman's ass.
he was totally hard.
dude's compensating.
and chico? dude, his days are numbered.
i'll take out anyone who hurts you. you know that.
i can meet you there. if you want.
i kind of hate texting still.